Kite Runner Entry 1. *****SPOILER WARNING*****

"There is a way to be good again."
What a monumental way to bring about change in a guilt filled past. When Rahim Khan gave Amir some news about his health and that he needed to see Amir he gave Amir some sound advice, there is a way to be good again. That was referring to Amir's troubled past live growing up in Afghanistan. But you dint have to witness the rape of your true brother and best friend to make that comment mean the world to you.

I know when i was growing up there are a lot of things I've done that I'm not entirely proud of, but when looking back on your actions you realize what a horrible atrocity occurred (relative to your life of course), and you want to right your wrongs, or be good again. When I was little I used to live with both parents and life was good, but then when they split up it tore my life apart. I didn't know who I wanted to live with. To make matters worse both of my parents were applying themselves to make me want to live with them. In the end I ended up living with my mother, but I know it crushed my father to learn that I would rather be with my mom then with him. That fact had always deeply troubled me. I tried to be the best son I could possibly be, and make my dad proud every day. Eventually I became a football star only because I knew he was into sports, but unfortunately the sport my father loved was hockey so I never got much praise for my abilities. I also tired to do excel in school but eventually couldn't with football getting in the way, but I did the best I could do. But I was always feeling horrendous guilt toward my father for choosing not to live with him. It didn't help at all that I would tear my mom's heart open if I choose to go live with him after getting so close with her. But finally I had a chance to live with my father when my sister was born. Like with Amir finding out Hassen was his brother and Sohrab his nephew. He did everything he could do to make that little boy happy, even went as far as adopting his nephew and bringing him back to America. My sister's birth was my Sohrab. I was finally able to live with my dad and used the excuse that he needed help because he was still paying a huge sum of money in the form of child support for me when he couldn't afford to do that now with our little princess. So I was finally able to rid me of my guilty conscience and have now lived with my dad for a year and a half. I still am on wonderful relations with my mother and I couldn't be happier. I defiantly took my chance to be good again.